boys, in general, they

I was the kind of girl tired of having fake boyfriends who always have hurted me and broken my life. I say I was because I mean now I am, after... one month ago? Anyway, there are too many differents kind of boys as differents kind of girls, of couse girls know what kind of girl is the other quickly, as boys know what kind of guy is other in a first look. In fact one day one of my best friends told me, that guy is a shit one! I didnt want to listen him so I became her gf, after more than one year of my life wasted and given to that person, voila! he fcked all my routine and my brain, cool and sad, friends are good, ppl who you just are meeting are not such good, be careful of yourself and dont trust in anybody. But, how can I know what kind of guy is the one who I like, the one who I fall in love, the one who blinded me? Its so complicated, but after 24 years of falling with the same shitty stone I have decided to open my eyes and judge them before anything could happen, no more blidness, no more unecesary pain. There is the guy that is a dick sometimes, but other times is so amazing and good, so is it only with you or is like that with everyone? And then you realize that he is a dick with his friends (boy gender) but so friendly and sweet with his friends (girl gender). I call it the lost and confused boy, too young to know what he is, where he is, where is going to and what he wants. For this kind of people you can wait and see what happen, wasting your time, or you can just keep going, keep him as a friend, and let him to figure out who the heck is he! Other kind of boy is the loneliness, this is a complicated guy, well mostly all of them are, he wants to keep you from time to time, maybe once per month. He is gonna be kinda of amazing and sweet with you that day, like if he was your boyfriend, yea, one day per month and always while other people dont know about it. And of course, be always ready for the day he finds his true love out of there!! You have two options again, enjoy once per month that day and dont think about it and how sad it seems to be tbh oooor let it go and dont fall in his arms the next time, if he talks dont answer, just run away! I dont know whats better, I mean, find other guy better!! Third one!! Funy guy, friendly, party boy who you met long ago and you had kind of something a couple of days and then you both took different paths but months later he asked you to travel together around but you moved on and you have a new job so you cant have fun as much as he does. So he finds other girl for that crazy summer, of course she falls in love for him and you can see it on she, but, what about he tho? Summer is gone, he goes back to the routine and his life just sucks, you talk to him, 'hey how was summer?' expecting him to tell you about this girl and say, -yea found the love of my life- yea I have girlfriend now so cant talk a lot with you-... and he just says, 'all this end has been good'. Yes all this END, and you are like... Im confused, sorry? I can see literally the girl loading and taging pics of both together, hearts around... Im missing something, maybe? Nvm. After talking with him he tells me 'he is lost and doesnt know even about getting a new job nowhere, nowhen'... Best thing for this, yea, 'clean your mind and let me know if you want something', I might not be free by then tho. Of course we all girls know the ex boyfriend, there are lots of kind of ex bfs, the one you dont talk anymore, the one you dont know about anymore, the one who is a dick because cheated on you and he didnt want to admit it (this one really sucks!) the one who you had accidents with after you broke up... this is a long list I guess. Defo ex bfs are not good, you can try to have them as friends, yea and his friends would be a really weird type of ''friends'' for you... and his new gf... she is gonna hate you for the rest of her life with huge reasons!!! Oh bitch you tried him before her and you decided he is not enough for you! So now yes, you are right, I couldnt find YET the right boy for me and Im swimming aloneeeee and without a cat YET again by my side. I dont mind tho, Im good, atm, give me one year more, I might finish kind of crazy. Now going to talk to myself, is that good? dont think so. None is gonna read it anyway, its on english, im spanish huh! Is been a looong write! Is love real? Probably yes, but we need to learn to understand what is love into the reality of the social life. Someone told me that sometimes Im sad because I have other expectatives that reality offers to me, he is right, he is one of this kind of guys tho, one to stay away for a while... So yes, expectatives make people sad and unhappy, expectatives arent friends of a smile in your face, simply dont expect a shit of none, thats the best advice! xoxo. They say that ppl who are smarter write bad because they think too fast that they cant stop to correct what they are writing, too many ideas bro. Thats me with this one.